Eep.

So today was better than yesterday. WAY better might I add. :D

I was up most of the night due to a real bad storm, but my mom let me go into school late. So I went in about third period and I was all giddy but at the same time not really. I was super nervous. So then I went to third, missed a test. [I went in during the end of the period, like five minutes left.] Went to lunch. Then went to fourth. Had a good time in Art with Derek, but he and I always have a good time in Art. (: Then lame Fifth, then lamer sixth. Then THEN THENNNNN mythology, which I adore that class so much. So Jake and I, this random kid that I ended up being partners with, but he's pretty cool I guess. Anywho, Jake and I are doing a project on Dioynsus, the God of wine, and we finished making our poster thingy thing and then we were told we had to add more things on it, and it already had a staff and a large wine cup from the old 'n days. Now we're adding grapes. So yeah, Nick Soto kept trying to give me a piece of paper, it was making me smile and I was glad I smiled. Anywho, after seventh, I grew balls and hit Monster[Joey] like we made the bet. I walked with him for little just talking and stuff and I walked out 'cause I didn't want to lose my ride home, so then I saw Troy and he gave me a hug and then I ran over to Nichole and Paul. Then I came home and had a chicken sandwich. Haha, this is really REALLY discriptive. The school called my house around 6:30 and said I wasn't in school. Haha, I'm laughing. Now I have to go to the office tomorrow to see what's up. Jesus christ.

Oh, and for the past few weeks, my mom has suppose to have got me a visa gift card so I can order Boardway's hoddie and some other stuff, well, here she has yet to give it to me. It's really starting to piss me off and make me really angry with her because it shows I can not depend on her for anything. I mean, I'm at the point where I need to have 1.50 every day for lunch and she doesn't have it. I know that we have a lot of finicail problems right now, but yeah, and it may seem selfish, but if you lived with all the people she has to support, it pisses me off that I can't get a job. REALLY pisses me off. Like, I don't know, people think my house is a hotel. I mean, I like my brothers friends, but my cousin's friends, I don't like, most of 'em anyway. I don't know. I'm so done with pot heads. They're annoying and piss me off.

I've been talking to this girl named Amy off and on for awhile, more just a "hey, is ee you at school" and "your cute" thing. But today we had a good conversationg. (: She's a real doll. I hope she turns out to be a friend. :D

Today, I also heard about the world coming to and end or something along those lines because of an expirment going on tomorrow. I don't know much about it, 'cause I have a horrible reading skills and stuff, but if anything goes wrong, we could all die or something. I don't know. I'm kind of scared, but you know, if we die, at least I'll die happy. But if it works and stuff, it will be a real good discovery for the world. Yeah, it's real scary. Oh well. If I die tomorrow, I want people who read this that I'm fine dying. The whole situation is 50/50. We could die or live. Nik thinks we're going to die. But, I don't know. I'm really scared that I'm not going to wake up tomorrow. :/ Just thinking about dying makes me want to cry. After everything for once in my life is going good, it might just end in a blink of an eye. It's sad because I wont ever see Alora or Cadance, or even baby Charlie grow up. Haha, I'm getting teary eyed just thinking about it. And to top it off, my left eye has been twitching all day. I'm really REALLY scared. So scared that words can't explain it.


I have an essay that I fucked up on. I have to rewrite it.
Jesus.


Laterrrr