oh wow.

Wow.


All I have to say wow.
Get a life and stop harassing people online.
:D

I'm not pathetic.
I'm going somewhere in life.
I'm work for what I got.
I'm worth something!


I'm happy with who I am.
I am getting better at not letting people get to me. I'm over that fact that you betrayed me and everything was a lie. I tend to laugh A LOT and not to hide the fact that I'm hurt, I laugh because you expect it to hurt my feelings, but it doesn't because I am a strong person besides the fact I am working on myself mostly by myself. My family is there for me and I love them for who they are.


I LIKE WHO I AM.
IF YOU DON'T, WELL THEN FUCK OFF.

so

no more xbox360 for awhile.
fml.

twice, it was knocked over and fucking, mindy just bought me a game and i was playing it and fucking then it decided it didn't want to read fucking hard drives. i'm rly pissed about that. but oh well.

i thought my brother was going to kill me, but surprisingly, he took it okay.

i start work tomorrow.
i'm really excited.
REALLY REALLY excited.
(:

wish me luck.


I wonder if anyone still reads these.
:/

i finally

shaved my legs after three months.
lmao.

i'm trying

my hardest for you.
:/

AIM < MYSPACE

i'm done using aim.

contact through myspace from now on.
yeah
or xbox.
i'm on xbox a lot now so.
:/

iunno.
yeah
later.


btw, don't grow distant.
:/


call.

xbox live

is my life once again.
:/

it makes me miss chris a whole lot.
:/


anyway.


Xl nek0 lX [ those are L's and that zero! ]

:D

add if it you have xbox live, just tell me who you are!
:D

:/

fuckmylife.

so

i fail at life.

i don't go to school.
i don't leave my house often.
i don't go much of anything.

i fail so bad at life.

:/

last night

i played gears till 5am. lol.
it was funny.
lol.

anyway.
i didn't wake up till 530.
my mom forgot to call about getting me homebound till jan when i can go through cyber schooling. uh, i rly rly can't wait. (: uh, i'll prob will be buying my own xbox360 and live so i could play anytime i wanted. :D

lol.
it's fun.
and like, just an escape from reality.

i was suppose to go to the mall with sheepy today, but i slept through my alarm, obviously and she's in state college now, i think, with jada seeing the bigger lights or whatever. lol.

i feel like shit, man.
lol.
i haven't showered.
i haven't ate.
i haven't rly done much with anything lately.


anyway who, this is just a refresher.
(:


OHOHOH.
i went with jaleesa to barnes and nobles and i have two new videos on youtube.
RADIOquart
(:

look it up.
:D

k, later.

i left

my house today to hangout with jaleesa in public.
it felt good.

i thank you for the inspiration.
<3

so like

the past few days have been really drama event-filled. i think i handle it all very well though. (:


i love my life right now.
nothing could possibly get worse.
i have the greatest friends.


i made up with amber, we're cool now. Fuck that, man.
brazil and i no longer have a thing.
nik and i are chill.
ky and i are great.
(:

i just love how this is going.

if only school was going as well as i wished.
:/

:/

i forgot to mention yesterday that i'm looking for a another job because TJ Maxx told me they can't start me for two weeks and I can't wait that long. I need to do something.
:/



anyway,
right now, i'm rly happy.
(:


and i can't wait till i'm cyber schooled.
i can't stand going to school.
:/

i left school

because i had a real bad anxiety attack and was out for all three morning periods.
:/


i don't know i'll be online much today because i have work they told me I couldn't start till two weeks from now, and i'm going to go nap now and i feel rly shitty. iunno what time i'll be home.


<3


i love you, kmh. (:

first day back to school in 3 weeks.

lmao.


well, i got a new english class.
i'm now a junior.

i was in the class for about 20 minutes then i left to go to the guidance office to hangout and i cried a little bit and now they are changing all my core classes to some emotional support thing.

i have A LOT of make up work and i was told that i shouldn't rly worry about the english because it's getting changed again. i hated all the weird looks i got and how stupid i felt because the class all seemed to be dirty people besides april and dj.
X_x;

anyway, i'm addicted to love story by taylor swift.

Happy Birthday, Mom.

I'm sorry about last night. I was just worked up and in an emotional state. I love you and I hope you got my E-mail. I'm sorry I didn't come back home, I just needed a hug and Alora was there to hold me. I cried myself to sleep last night because I felt like you didn't appreciate anything I said in the email because Mema nor you told me anything about it. But I love you. I can not wait till it's just me and you. No more of anything. Everything will fade away around us because you'll be there. I know at times I say things I don't mean, but I truly do love you and you keep me sane. Without you, I wouldn't be here and I'm glad I am because I get to spend my life with you in it. I'm sorry for all the things I've did to make you upset, all the things to hurt your feelings, just, I'm sorry for everything. I love you more than I love anything, even if I don't show it.


Happy Birthday.




She's my mom, and you're opinion doesn't matter.




EDIT:

Pictures :D

today;

has possibly been the worst day ever.

i haven't cried this much for awhile. it's like, ever person i talk, i cry. they either say something to make me cry or not saying something to make me cry.


i hate being an emotional person.
:/

dear who this may concern;

lately i've been thinking about a lot of stuff concerning friends. I adore my two best friends to the max, yes, and one day i shall live with both of them, yes, but i question them sometimes.



Both of my best friends now have boyfriends and only one has shown a big change. I know it's only been a few days since they started dating but I don't care. She lied about the stupidest thing, and honestly would you date someone who your best friend and all your other friends despise because he's an asshole and a jerk and so many vile things?

My other best friend still shows concern for me and I love her for that. Nothing has changed between us at all just the fact she's always playing WoW now with her boyfran. Lol. But I love her still and we talk, so I'm good.



this is ending now because I want to play zOMG! again. :D It was freaking lagging because Amber IMed me and I was in the middle of battle. Dx




OH! I got a job. (:

ps.
SORRY ABOUT THE TYPOS! I MAKE A LOT OF THEM!

(:

So I'm chilling with two teeth gone!

I new yesterday was going to be a good day. Besides the fact I got two teeth pulled, I am now an 11th grader.
:D

Woo.
I'm really happy about that.
It's pretty amazing.
:D

I'm rly rly happy!
So Monday when I got to school I'm going to gather up all my three weeks of missed work and I prob wont be online much at all those days I work on those works. I'll prob get different assignments, like book work. I'd rather do book work than anything else for a catch up. So i'm hoping I'll just have to take my books home and do outlines and questions and prob worksheets about chapters and math. Yeah, not hard work, just a lot of it. I hope I can get it all down in a week. (: Lets hope!

Anyway!

I love kylee michelle [i forgot how to spell her last name. xD even though I'm pretty sure it starts with a P]

Ranting;

you're an asshole.
first you tell me she's a whore you and hate her and now you guys are like, unofficial again. wow, you're cool. you make me hate fucking guys because of how you think of yourself so highly. HERE IS A HINT: you're a fucking jerk who needs to gtfo.

uhg, i'm so upset right now i feel like fucking pulling out my hair.

i OFFICIALLY hate boys that are online. all they fucking do is happen to make me feel like shit giving me false hope. i'm done. k.


uh, on the bright side, i might have a job.
(:

i havent..

been posting. oh well. nothing rly is going on and like, i have nothing to vent about i guess.

i officially hate doctors.
i am thinking about going full lesbian.
i might be getting cyber schooled.
i hate altoona
i hate most boys.


and i don't use the word hate often.
oh man.


oh!
yeah.
nvm.
(:




edit:

rosco is gone.
:/