lmao.

give me sympathy because all i want is attention.


in all honesty, i don't give a fuck.



GOODBYE ALTOONA.
FOREVER AND EVERY ASSHOLE IN IT.
(:

I considered you a close friend;

You show nothing of it, Kylie. I mean, we went through so much, but it's okay, I wasn't expecting the fact that you didn't care I was leaving the state and never coming back. It's okay that you're never online to talk to me. It's okay that you think I was avoiding you when you know I had work and I was packing and shit, and don't even say I was avoiding you because I was the only one putting effort into talking to you because I care about you, but it looks like that's only one way. You obviously don't care about me. This is not causing drama, well I don't see how it is, I see it's just a person venting about her feelings because you don't ever fucking want to her it. I thought we were close friends and always going to be friends, but I guess I was wrong. It's pathetic. I honestly wasted so much time on you. I had better things to do, but I picked you, I picked you out of all the things I could have been doing. I was offered so many things, but I choose you instead because you're one of my only friends in Altoona, but looks like I was wrong about that. Looks like we weren't even friends. And I called you a lot, and yet you ignore my phone calls. I put so much effort into talking to you, and you put shit! SHIT, KYLIE! I tried so fucking hard to make this work, and yet you were too fucking involved around the fucking internet. I mean, honestly, I thought I was bad with the internet, but that's all you fucking do. We don't have fun anymore because you're life consist of the internet and doing nothing. It's a shame that you don't even have an imagination anymore.

I'm done with bullshit. Altoona is a fucking pit of hell. The only people good in Altoona is my family, kristy, jaleesa, and fucking nichole and justin. I'm glad I'm leaving. I'll never have to fucking frown again.

im not sure what it was...

but i really miss her.
:/

and i've mad a lot of mistakes with her and she really was one of my best friends.


if you're reading this,
i'm sorry for all the things i did wrong to make you upset. i'm sorry i lied, i'm sorry i never called when i said i would, i'm sorry i could be a better best friend, i'm sorry for giving up, i'm sorry for growing distant. i miss you like crazy.
:/


please, if you're reading, contact me.

reality...

sucks asshole.

I can't do shit for my best friend because she's all the way in Ohio.
I'm losing touch with Sheepy. :/
I've lost touch with Kylee.
My mom and I are fab.


Why does everything feel like it's crashing? Oh wait, it is.

I move in 13 days and I'm getting really upset, but the decision was made a long time ago and I can't turn away now. It's happening. We don't have a lot of money to move away with, only a few hundred, but we have to move because we got kicked out because people are assholes. I don't know how I will handle all this by myself, but I guess I wont be by myself if my mom is with me.

I can't handle not having my life flash before my eyes. I haven't cried in weeks, but now...I'm finally crying.

I use to think that life had it's reasons, now I think living is a joke. I don't want to be alive anymore but because I know people will be hurt if I died, I can't do that to them. I may not liking being alive, but they do and I'm still alive for them. Life is not what it use to be, and I guess a lot of people in the world have noticed because 1 person commits suicide every 17 minutes. Life now and days is truly a joke. You live to die. What a pathetic saying. It's should be more like "When you grow older, you realize that living is pretty pointless so why not kill yourself? Only being a child is the funnest part of life."


I like to think I'm a positive thinker, but lately all I've been thinking is negative thoughts. I've gained a lot of weight, I've gotten super careless about how I look, I'm never going to be good enough for someone, I'm never going to accomplish my ideal dreams, and so forth.


Yeah, as negative as that sounds, I can not change the way I think. This is pathetic.
Anyway,. FAIL POST.