reality...

sucks asshole.

I can't do shit for my best friend because she's all the way in Ohio.
I'm losing touch with Sheepy. :/
I've lost touch with Kylee.
My mom and I are fab.


Why does everything feel like it's crashing? Oh wait, it is.

I move in 13 days and I'm getting really upset, but the decision was made a long time ago and I can't turn away now. It's happening. We don't have a lot of money to move away with, only a few hundred, but we have to move because we got kicked out because people are assholes. I don't know how I will handle all this by myself, but I guess I wont be by myself if my mom is with me.

I can't handle not having my life flash before my eyes. I haven't cried in weeks, but now...I'm finally crying.

I use to think that life had it's reasons, now I think living is a joke. I don't want to be alive anymore but because I know people will be hurt if I died, I can't do that to them. I may not liking being alive, but they do and I'm still alive for them. Life is not what it use to be, and I guess a lot of people in the world have noticed because 1 person commits suicide every 17 minutes. Life now and days is truly a joke. You live to die. What a pathetic saying. It's should be more like "When you grow older, you realize that living is pretty pointless so why not kill yourself? Only being a child is the funnest part of life."


I like to think I'm a positive thinker, but lately all I've been thinking is negative thoughts. I've gained a lot of weight, I've gotten super careless about how I look, I'm never going to be good enough for someone, I'm never going to accomplish my ideal dreams, and so forth.


Yeah, as negative as that sounds, I can not change the way I think. This is pathetic.
Anyway,. FAIL POST.